Well, I guess technically I do. The diploma is hanging proudly and the cap and gown are STILL in my car, but everything with in me doesn't know if I am in the right place. Being back in school is exciting, but very overwhelming. Part of me doesn't believe that I will be able to pass the CPA and all of this might be for not, everything within me never wanted anything more. :) I never wanted to study, seek, practice, or do what I have been learning more than I do right now.
My Pastor's Bible studies rock me to the core. I have never been pushed harder, challenged more, sought after, or loved more by a Pastor and his family than I have experienced now. I saw myself preaching yesterday. SCARY! I saw myself ministering to a small group of girls. SCARY! If I never accept my call from God, how many people will fall through my fingers when God has placed them in my path for a reason??? As I pondered that, I cried. My heart swells when I think of affecting lives to the betterment of my God. I haven't been satisfied with anything that I have done, except working with girls. I realize that now. I wish I would have realized this about 6 months ago.
I've found my call, I've found my place. Finally, I AM GOING TO WALK IN IT.
Please will YOU hold my hand?
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