It's Tuesday

Today I did about a whole bunch of nothing except picked up and read a seemingly "innocent" book from Alison Petrie.  I thought when I picked it up that I might not like it, or read a bit and then finish later and now it is 10:28 p.m. and I finished the book in one day.  Now that's really not an accomplishment if everyone saw the book, but I was blown away by this "innocent" little book.  It really makes me think about the way that I see things and the way that the world is set up around me, by my Creator.  

Last night, during my prayer time, all I could do was sit in amazement and awe and thanks of my God.  There are so many little things that pass every day and that I don't realize the impact that they have on me.  Yesterday, for some reason, all of those hit me.  

I, finally, opened up to my mom about my walk with God and she didn't fuss or yell or chastise me, but I think I saw a bit of happiness and a smile of a proud mother.  I want her to know all of the aspects of my God that I know.  I want all of my family to experience my God, like I have.  I think if everyone in the world could lay everything down that is of this world and know that everything that we have is His and every where we go is because of Him, that something would change in all of us.  

His abounding love, grace and mercy astounds me each and everyday.  He uses tiny me to perform some pretty awesome stuff, that makes me excited.  I can't wait to do more for His kingdom.  To change the way I am and to change into more of what He is.  To change what I want into what He wants for me.  To lay me down and to be more of that woman of God that He has called me to.  To experience on a daily basis all of God and not just the box that I put Him in.  I really just don't know how to describe it all.  I have finally figured out what I am to do with this time back at home.  

Grad school starts in a week...scary and exciting all at the same time. Then after school comes CPA test...which is even more scary.  Honestly, I hate starting out again.  Not knowing anything or anyone. It's not a fun time.  I know I will learn a lot and grow, the process is just not the best for me.  :/ oh whatever...

I love Jesus.