whether it comes from abandonment issues, or control issues, or the fact that i am stubborn the trusting issue always seems to rear its ugly head. i have Pastors in my life that want to help me and that want to be my spiritual father and mother, but i can't trust them with the fact that i have been feeling like crap recently and just need prayer. i have a beautiful friend in my life that wants to see me grow, but i can't trust her with the fact that every other girl i have let into my life, has left at one point or another. i have a support group around me that loves on me so much, but i can't trust them with the fact that i don't feel i am worthy enough of their love.
"when i am afraid, i will trust in You." Ps. 56:3
"trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge" Ps. 62:8
"may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit" Rom. 15:13
"the Sovereign Lord is my strength, He makes my feel like the feet of a deer, He enables me to go on the heights" Hab. 3:19
"do not be afraid, O man, highly esteemed," he said, "peace! be strong now, be strong" when He spoke to me, i was strengthened and said "speak, my lord, since you have given me strength" Dan. 10:19
what i have gathered from this tiny little search for trust and strength i have found the fact that i need to trust in Him and His ways and although, sometimes i don't understand the process that i am in, i should not grieve it but go through it expecting and demanding change in my life.
most of my life i have always found a way out of a process that i knew God was bringing me through because i didn't trust the people around me or Him for that matter. but for once, i am not going to run, i am going to try to trust and i am going to expect my God to move upon my behalf because i am His chosen daughter.
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